My 2010 vision

Here I go again.

I woke up this day. (May1 Saturday 2010) feeling excited, anxious, and ready to really start making it to the top. Im having my visions again of what i'll be come and what I want to be. I saw a picture of two successful young women in the cover of a lifestyle magazine, I got excited and said to myself "i want to be like them, young, successful and famous" Im really really hoping that when I reach 30.. i can say that im Thirty,flirty and fabulous!..hehehe

I now imagine myself having my own design firm (interior/architecture) with a really great all star team and being called by many developers for projects. aside from that our family mango farm will be a sought after events place to..

Once i start designing our other house, people will be asking me to design for them.

Then I'll be working in a really well designed office, very well compensated, not to stressed out. no overtime work, being able to workout regularly and travel easily... and most especially shop for clothes that i want without being conscious of the price tag.

I'll have my own house and condo with a nice car, dress up nicely.. be a really hot successful architect and can have my interior design show to!

All this will happen before i reach my 30's. I know it will.

After 30 thats when I be having my family... it will start with a really great husband (which i know will definitely come true) then a wonderful wedding to envy and a great house in the south..preferably in alabang.

MISSING FRIENDS..

I miss you guys, hope we could meet up soon and hangout.

Sunday Coffee - with the Byuteefols

Sad to think that one of my bestfriends would be leaving for San Francisco. A week from now, five of us will be left. I feel so lucky to have found five friends which I consider to be a big part of my life. (Cheryl, Marla, Pia, Bebe and Yayo - Byuteefols) They are the ones whom I've grown with and learned a lot from. We've shared so many great memories which I will always treasure.

It's just sad to see that as we grow up and try to live our own lives, the distance caused by work begins to grow. Finding time to be complete and to be together becomes a challenge, but at least we still try to find ways to make it. Even though it's not as often as we want to.

Lately I've been missing their company.. I know they do too.

This sunday I had coffee with all of them at Seatle's Best. I'm glad we got this chance to be complete. I'll be looking forward in doing this again hopefully this coming Christmas, when Cher comes back to visit.

Sunday Thoughts

Ok, now its finally October and my bumming days at home is over. I'm now starting my training in our new family spa business. So far, everything running smoothly as I get up every morning to drive 12 people to our training venue in Sta. Rosa. It doesn't feel work to me though and I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing to feel, but that's the way it works. I wake up, drive for about 20-35 mins, wait and watch until 6 pm and drive back home. Simple, isn't it? That's why I don't know if I should even demand for a paycheck..hehehe.. I want to ofcourse but then I again I could easily ask for money whenever I would want to go out on a gimmick, so I just look at it as being able to get an advance pay whenever I need it.

Anyways, I guess this work that I'm doing right now wasn't the type of work I was expecting myself to be in. I more of like imagined myself to be walking along Ayala Ave, wearing a smart casual attire to work, having a nice office with lots of nice and friendly officemates, and a job that allows me to contribute my design my skills and at the same time enjoyable. But this isn't what was planned for me all along. And even though what I'm doing right now seems far from what I learned in college, I'm still up for the challenge. I admit at times I feel unsure of what's instore for me in the future but I guess as long as I'm following a clear path, it would be hard to get lost now is it?

Im not sure if I'll be the architect that I imagined myself to be in the future. I'm not sure if I'll ever get the chance to work in Australia. I'm not sure if I'll ever have my dream condo or house. Im not sure of what type of life ill be living in the future. But one thing I'm sure of is that as long as I leave everything to GOD and trust in His plan for me, I know my life is in good hands and its going to be great. I know this, because He has never failed me. No matter how bad things seems, it always turns out to be something better than what I hoped and prayed for.

My Saturday Night

It was already 6 pm and I was still in batangas. I was feeling a bit uneasy knowing that I won't be able to be on time for our crucial volleyball game tonight because it was scheduled to start at 7pm. Anyways, I was confident enough that I'll still make it, since there was no traffic on the way home. Unfortunately, we started one. Our van was side swiped by a jeepney while it was cutting through our lane. So, we got into a little situation.. which caused me to arrive late in our game.

Now, when I arrived at the gym and started to warm-up for the game, I noticed that my team wasn't doing all well in our first set! I thought we would be able to win the following sets but sadly we didn't. We lost three sets straight which means that it was over for us.. we didn't quality for the championships. Anyways, I got home early and thought of what I could do tonight. No one texted for any invite for any gimmick so I thought I'll be stuck once again at home on a Saturday night.

Suddenly, as I was writhing this blog out of boredom and to make myself busy, someone rang our doorbell. I checked it out to see who it was and to my surprised it was my cousin. He was dropped by his friends from a fashion event that they went to and he was planning to take a cab from our house to his house in pilar. I then got an idea and a reason to make something out of my Saturday night. I offered to bring him home to that I could also go out and meet up with friends.

And so I did, I met up with one.. And the rest of the night went really well. I had fun and had a great time.

Sometimes, its really up to us to make something out of a situation. Waiting for something to happen just won't do.
There's always a way to make something better, it all depends on you.

Wrong Timing

Why is it that whenever you think things are going well according to plan, unexpected events would come up and would either complicate things or would make things worse?

SOmetimes I feel that the more I try to help, the more useless my efforts become. Nothing happens.. there will always be a reason why things just couldnt be done the way you want them to. My sacrifices which its purpose was to help, seems worthless each time my plan fails. Whats the use then? I could give up and just dont care, but that's an option I dont want to take, because you're failure is my failure.. I care. And I hope I could see that you do too, so that nothing is wasted.

No Words to Describe

There are days when no words can describe how you feel. You just know it. And right now, I feel very blessed and so loved that simply saying the words " i love you" seem to be an understatement.